vent 091220
fear sometimes, people around will act certain ways; certain ways that make you scared, that make you afraid of them, even though it's someone who you'd trust your life with. sometimes, we just end up being scared of some people in our lives. or is it just me? is it just me being scared of certain things happening over and over again with different people; that i automatically just switch to fear mode? and then... firstly a funny cloud of dark humour starts to actually float over my head abandoned it feels like one of us is fading and I just dont know who it is it feels like the connection is weakening, the distance is getting bigger and that i've been replaced by more important things and i understand that some things are in some situations just more important but it feels like I did all I could do, even though it wasnt comfortable for me just to sit and wait and over the years, I learned to hate waiting I learned to hate waiting until I get noticed and I learned to hate t